So initially I thought to write a post on my journey with Lyme Disease, but honestly, I’m finding it difficult to write about. And I think the reason is because perhaps I don’t really want to write about that journey. But maybe more so the journey that’s about to be? Everyone already knows how debilitating Lyme is and most of you probably know I’ve had a summer of daily IV antibiotics, which meant a summer of no sun, no swimming, no exercise, no wine, and all too often an 8:00 bedtime, only to wake up feeling like I was hit by a Mack truck. It’s been the summer that never was! And that’s no fun to write about or read about! So let’s turn this around, shall we?
Some great news: I’m almost finished my (current) treatment (YAY!!!). I go back to work next week and will begin to get back to my normal life again. But I can’t say that this summer of healing has been nothing to talk about. As a matter of fact, I think in many ways, I’m coming out of this experience with more clarity and drive. One can’t endure a healing crisis without some kind of force to come after that will alter their life. I read a quote recently that really hit home for me: “We spend the present moment worrying about wasted time. And then we worry we are not learning.” I can admit that I’ve been in somewhat of a funk (we all find ourselves there at one point or another), but somewhere I feel like I lost a bit of the ambitious Dianna I once was. Don’t get me wrong, there are so many things in my life that I’m immensely grateful for and wouldn’t trade anything. I have an incredible family and beautiful friends, all who support me.
In support of unearthing that person who has passion behind her career, I’ve taken some time to step back, re-evaluate my life and I’ve made the decision, with the amazing support of my husband, to go back to school! I’m so thrilled I can’t contain myself. This blog has been a fun and creative space for me and here in this space, I have found that I love being behind my camera. So I plan to study digital photography in a lot more detail and I can’t wait to see where this takes me! Where this may lead, I’m not sure. I’m trying to not carve out an exact plan, but work towards smaller, reachable goals and see where it leads.
Oh, and tomorrow I get my PICC line taken out and plan on having a nice, big glass of red wine! After a full summer spent killing spirochetes…I deserve it!